Monday, September 27, 2010

living at home

i know i am free loading at home and should not complain. i should be thankful that im able to save up money to pay off my loans. i know im being extremely unappreciative, but i dislike living at home so much. this is purely me venting. nobody should read it. if people do read it, dont judge.

i dont like the food they eat. i dont like how they have a set schedule of what days to eat what. i know if i dislike the food so much, i should just cook for myself. i dont mind that cooking for myself, but i dont want to cook to their taste. my brother is a picky eater and only likes to eat very particular types of chinese food. if i were to cook, i would cook things i want to eat. but then i dont want to hear him complain that whatever i cooked doesnt fill him up, doesnt taste good enough for him to eat enough to get full, whatever the excuse. my dad cooks sometimes. but he is a horrible cook who cant take any criticism. if i even as much as suggest how to cook a certain dish, he would say things like, YOU COOK IT NEXT TIME! I DONT SEE YOU IN THE KITCHEN!! true enough. i dont cook at home. but all i said was, you should add some garlic next time. i dont think that merits him screaming like that. it seems like he does that a lot, overreacting. he would say the meaniest things in respond to some minor things. i guess he wants to make a point? whatever hes trying to do, hes over doing it. for example:
i have long hair and it does shed. so inevitably theres hair on the bathroom floor/bathtub. i clean it from time to time. if my brother complains (he hasnt yet), i would go clean it right away since we do share the bathroom. one night, my dad comes to the bathroom to use my mouth rinse (without asking! thats gross!). he notices theres hair in the sink. instead of asking me to clean it, he start complaining:
OMG VIVIAN your hair is everywhere! you need to clean up after youself. dont you know your hair is falling?! it grows on your head for gods sake! i swear if you dont clean up after yourself im going to burn your hair off. look! theres hair in the bathtub! ... and on and on.
then my brother says, no some of that hair is mine. which is true, he has pretty long hair for a guy and he doesnt always clean up after himself either. but my dad says, NO its her hair, its long hair, blah blah blah........

ok i get your point. i got it when he said his first complete sentence. its not like im leaving poison all over the place.

sometimes i dont know if my dad is pretending to be stupid because he thinks its funny, or he really isnt that bright when it comes to certain things. no, im pretty sure hes just pretending that he doesnt know some/never heard of some super common knowledge, and that annoys the crap out of me. also, ive lived on my own for the past 4 years and im really used to keeping my room a certain way and doing things a certain way. i dont need him to tell me when i need to do what.

the tv. its so quiet. when i do turn the volume up because the show i want to watch is on, they complain that its too loud. seriously?? im not deaf, i dont have hearing problems, but i can barely, BARELY hear what they are saying. it REALLY isnt on that loud. but i guess since they never watch tv, well when they do, they are just looking at the pictures and dont care about what they are saying, they just.. dont care to listen? i dont know. its annoying though.

i dont like the couch. its old and very uncomfortable.

i dont like the garage opener. it doesnt work half of the time.

i dont like the neighborhood.

i dont like sharing a bathroom with my step brother.

i dont like to hear my step brother pee with the bathroom door half open

god i cant wait to move out.



|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Honey

Honey is a red Chihuahua/Pomeranian mix at the shelter. she is 5 years old and was surrendered by her previous owner. Like many dogs at the shelter, she tested heartworm positive.

pretty dogs like Honey usually goes very fast. but she has been at the shelter for over 2 weeks now and nobody even bothers to ask to see her. reason being she curls up in the corner of her kennel all day. doesnt matter what other dogs are doing, doesnt matter who is in front of her kennel, she doesnt even bother to look.

the vet tech says that maybe she is just stressed. i think she is either extremely depressed, or she is dying from heartworm. the shelter doesnt give any treatment until the dog is adopted. even though i dont know exactly how advanced her heartworm is, i can tell that if she doesnt receive treatments soon, shes not gonna make it... when i took her out to play with her, she looked like shes in pain and didnt want to move. she was wheezing with every breath she took. it broke my heart....

i want to help her so bad but i dont have the time or the money. i want to see her go to a new home. i want to know that she will be ok.

i know she is one of the many many dogs in that situation. i know i cant help all of them. i guess i feel more attached to her because she is part Pom and she reminds me of Lumi. i want to take her home with me SO. BAD.

Honey im praying for you <3 please be strong! i will go see you again soon, pretty girl.





|| [ 雪子 ] || 

Thursday, September 23, 2010

responsibility

one of my coworker told me that shes had 5 cats growing up. one of the cats gave birth to 7 kittens. out of the 7, one died and all the rest were given to the animal shelter.

when she said "FIVE cats", she was actually proud of the fact that shes had so many animals in her life. like its a good thing, like she knows so much about cats. well, average lifespan of a cat is 15 years. so unless she is 75 years old, i wouldnt consider the fact that shes had so many cats something to be proud of.

i asked her what happened to all her cats just for the benefit of the doubt. you know, many some of them were really sick, maybe some just had unforeseen accidents, maybe she just have really bad luck with cats. she only had time to tell what happened to 3 of her cats before we had to go back to work. so, this is what happened:

cat 5: gave birth to 7 kittens. this is a stray cat they picked up in the neighborhood, so i guess they felt that it was ok to keep it an outdoor cat. they family didnt even know when the cat was giving birth in a pile of branches. one of the kitten's umbilical cord got caught in the branches and wasnt able to nurse from the mother. the rest was surrendered to the animal shelter. the mother cat disappeared one day after they let her out.

cat 1: given away when they had to move

cat 2: also outdoor cat. they discovered that it likes to climb "dangerous things", like power cords and electric boxes in the street. yet they still let it out. one day it was electrocuted.

seriously. SERIOUSLY? such horrible things happened to her cats, yet she can tell these stories like they are extremely amusing??

i admit, im not the most responsible pet parent there is. i have let my dog eat things that hes not suppose to eat, i have lived in an apartment that doesnt allow as many pets as i have, i have missed my pets follow up vaccines, i dont clean the litter box as often as i should. but i will never leave my pets behind and i try my best to protect them. i dont understand how some people can give up their pets so easily. or how some people keep letting their cats out even knowing the lifespan of an outdoor cat is only 3-5 years.

bell has been cuddling next to me since the beginning of this entry. she clings onto me the most out of all my pets. i cant imagine letting her down knowing that she depends on my for everything from food and shelter, to love and attention.



|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

from charlotte russe

got the stuff in the mail today. i feel like it took them a really long time to ship this... anyways


i like it, but i didnt know its knitted...? and the ruffles are kinda flat since it was packed in a plastic baggy thing. but i like it. goes with a lot of stuff.



ok, so i remember debating if i should get the ivory short sleeve one (pic above) or gray short sleeve one. i thought i got ivory, but apparently i got gray?? i guess i did. i really thought i got ivory tho. but the confirmation email says gray... i must have gotten gray but thought i got ivory. also, i got the GRAY one in XS but the black long sleeve in S? WHY? sigh... anyways. the short sleeve one isnt that loose on me. i guess its because i got XS??? IONO???? oh welllll!!!! still pretty happy with everything!

um... too lazy to take pix of all the stuff. plus my camera is out of batteries and charger is mia.

|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Monday, September 13, 2010

once upon a time.. there was korea

korean people claim a lot of chinese history and historical figures as their own. according to them:

confucius is korean
tai chi originated in korea
sun yat sen is korean
koreans are so pretty because xi shi is their ancestor
chinese medicine is korean's lost culture
chinese characters came from korean characters

there are many many many many more ridiculous claims. not gonna list everything here. all of these things are historical in nature, but they are very well established CHINESE history. anyways, thats not news. everything came from korean right?

totally. just a couple of days ago i was talking to my co-worker. the conversation:

K: do you know this korean game? ooh what is it called...

me: hmm?

k: oh starcraft! its really popular.

me: starcraft? but... um.. thats korean?

k: yeah! its really popular in korea. the second one just came out.

me: but its developed by Blizzard...

k: yeah, but its a korean game. everyone in korea plays it. it was originally developed in korea and the data base is there... or something like that.

me: but BLIZZARD developed it....

k: yeah! but its korean!

ok. seriously. starcraft!? just because the entire country of korea is obsessed with it doesnt make it a korean game. its an american game developed by an american developer. this hasnt even became history yet, and they are already claiming it. so whats next? english originated from korea??


自分の文化がなくでも、他の文化を盗むな



|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Thursday, September 9, 2010

i dont feel well

my tooth hurts. caused by inflammation of the gum surrounding it? maybe? i dont know

at the same time, i have a sore under the side of my tongue.

my throat hurts.

combine the three symptoms above = horrible appetite and painful eating time.

horrible appetite = lack of energy, decreased immunity. i feel the ache on the back of my neck. the one i always get before i get super sick.

please dont get sick please dont get sick please dont get sick god damn it





|| [ 雪子 ] || 

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

forever21... meh

i got the stuff today. this is what i think of everything:


this one was all folded up and wrinkled. i cant tell what it would look like without all the wrinkles, but it feels super soft and looks pretty good even with all the wrinkles.



ok did i say pink? did the website say pink? is it pink? ...not so much. i guess it has a pink tint to it, but its more like an awkward dirty beige pink color. not much love for that. plus, the sleeves are so fat and loose =\ i guess overall it looks ok, not a fan of the color but i will keep it.



love the bow on the shoulder still, dont like the fit tho. it looks kinda fat on me.. or should i say it makes me look fat? whatever. not worth $16, but not worth the trouble of returning either.


this one looks just like how it is in the picture. the sleeves are a little loose on me. whats up with forever21 and fat sleeves?

v-neck is v-neck. nothing to it

the real thing doesnt have this much shine to it. i thought it would be one of those better quality heavier fake pearls. but its not. its made of those cheap ones. and its not as tightly put together as the picture. you can see the clear plastic string between each pearl. but it still looks ok on my head. plus its only $2 so its not bad...
um... next time i definitely have to pay attention to SIZE. i imagined it to be maybe 5 inches in diameter.. well, its not. its HUGE. it is HUUUUGE!! its at least 10 inches in diameter. its like.. half of my face! i dont think i will ever wear it on my hair, but maybe on my shirt or something. but yea, HUGE.


earrings are not so clear and pretty like this. again, its a dirty beige kinda pink. and so does not shine like the picture. i havent tried them on yet, but i think it would still look good on me.

i think im the happiest with the earring stand i got on amazon tho. also arrived today:

it looks just like the picture. i already have some earrings on it and it looks super pretty.

anyways, now im waiting for the stuff from charlotte russe. im a little afraid of what those will look like now that i've somewhat disappointed by forever21. hmm...


|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

...and it continues

its on sale! and i couldnt control myself. plus, i keep thinking, now that i have a job, i should have a wardrobe that is fitting of work place... but its only an excuse to buy new clothes since my lab is very very casual. sigh..


first up: open front ruffle sweater in ivory.
perfect way to dress up any tank tops or whatnot. i also love the shirt the model is wearing underneath, but couldnt find it on the website. i guess they dont have it anymore?



buy 2 for $20 mix and match. i picked out a ivory short sleeve and black long sleeve.

cant wait to get everything in the mail!


|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Monday, September 6, 2010

SO. ANGRY!

GOD! its that DAMN DOG again!! why the heck is it here?! everytime he comes, he chases us around and OMG TAKE A HINT! no we dont want to play with you. we dont even like you!! yeah hear that hissing? that means back off!!!! *slap slap slap!*

that dog takes over mommy's bed everytime he comes. we have to sleep in the cold living room. especially Bell... poor Bell, she just wants mommy's love. but NOOO that dog, numi, or rumi? whatever, hogs the bed and mommy all night long!!

and and and!!! mommy daddy and that dog totally abused us!! they put us in this tub and sprayed water on us! it was horrible!! horrible horrible horrible!! bell's cries are still ringing... poor us!!

this is absolutely the worse weekend EVER!!~!!


~ Nori & Bell

Saturday, September 4, 2010

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i was so excited about labor day weekend. i thought, this is great because i can spend a long weekend with louis before the semester kicks in, then he will be super busy. i also will be studying for jlpt, volunteering(or at least try to), and other stuff. this is great, we can spend some quality time together over the long weekend.

i didnt know i was so behind schedule. sigh...


|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Friday, September 3, 2010

rant

"Technicality I Just want to Dance. I feel if I can dance then I have the whole world. I really don't want anything else at this point."
--Cousin.

1. technicality - noun; technically - adverb. get it right. so "technically" you just want to dance. and....? what? do you even know the definition of technicality or technically? dont use these words so you can sound smart. because you are not. and you are an idiot.

2. "Just" doesnt need to be capitalized.

3. neither does "Dance"

4. if you can dance then you have the whole world. the whole world is a lot to have. but apparently thats not enough for you... you dont want anything else at this point, but some time later you will probably want more than the whole world, wouldnt you. thats just like you. i dont even know if you realize what you are saying, but consciously or not, thats just like you.

stop trying to sound smart. it just shows how shallow and immature you are. no, not everyone wants a piece of you, not everyone wants "something else" when they dance with you, not everyone thinks you are pretty, not everyone is trying to date you. please now, GET OVER YOURSELF.

|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Thursday, September 2, 2010

megnut

Sarah: do you need to buy a lot of things for the muffins?

me: no... oh i do have to get megnut.

Sarah: ... huh?

me: hmmm? that thing.. that spice thats kinda like cinnamon? megnut? or is it magnut?

Sarah: um... im not sure...

me: OH. NUTMEG!

BWAHAHAHHAHA!


oh the dyslexia in me!
|| [ 雪子 ] ||

bye bye sushi

my betta fish sushi died yesterday.

hes been struggling for the past couple of weeks, finally past away yesterday. poor baby...

i wont put the blame on nori. its her nature to explore new things and she doesnt know better. i just wish that i had noticed earlier.

rest in peace sushi. i hope you are free of pain now, where ever you are.

|| [ 雪子 ] ||

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

looking GOOD

came back from a weekend from Austin, this is what was waiting for me at work: my name tag is up! what a pleasant surprise :D

My lab coats came in today! So EXCITED!

Looking professional... or at least pretending to.


|| [ 雪子 ] ||

shopping spree

got my first pay check. then its gone. ha!

shopping spree at forever21 online store. aiming for clothes suitable for the work place.


love how comfy this looks. and i dont have any olive color shirts so this is great for me.


my first pink and lacey shirt. christie what have you done to me?!


love the big bow on the shoulder <3>
definitely something i can wear to work... minus the leather shorts.

influenced by james wang and louis. MUST HAVE V-NECK!

since headbands dont agree with my head shape, lets try a headwrap....
...with big flowery clip. yes please.
earrings. hopefully they wont walk away, like all my other earrings.


in hindsight, there are a lot of grey shirts and a lot of pink accessories. didnt realize when i was shopping... oh well. didnt buy any bottoms/shoes because i have to wear things that will cover my legs + closed toe shoes for protection at work. so not sure what to look for yet. maybe that will be my next pay check shopping spree. HA!

cant wait to get it in the mail so i can try everything on!
|| [ 雪子 ] ||