living at home

i know i am free loading at home and should not complain. i should be thankful that im able to save up money to pay off my loans. i know im being extremely unappreciative, but i dislike living at home so much. this is purely me venting. nobody should read it. if people do read it, dont judge.

i dont like the food they eat. i dont like how they have a set schedule of what days to eat what. i know if i dislike the food so much, i should just cook for myself. i dont mind that cooking for myself, but i dont want to cook to their taste. my brother is a picky eater and only likes to eat very particular types of chinese food. if i were to cook, i would cook things i want to eat. but then i dont want to hear him complain that whatever i cooked doesnt fill him up, doesnt taste good enough for him to eat enough to get full, whatever the excuse. my dad cooks sometimes. but he is a horrible cook who cant take any criticism. if i even as much as suggest how to cook a certain dish, he would say things like, YOU COOK IT NEXT TIME! I DONT SEE YOU IN THE KITCHEN!! true enough. i dont cook at home. but all i said was, you should add some garlic next time. i dont think that merits him screaming like that. it seems like he does that a lot, overreacting. he would say the meaniest things in respond to some minor things. i guess he wants to make a point? whatever hes trying to do, hes over doing it. for example:
i have long hair and it does shed. so inevitably theres hair on the bathroom floor/bathtub. i clean it from time to time. if my brother complains (he hasnt yet), i would go clean it right away since we do share the bathroom. one night, my dad comes to the bathroom to use my mouth rinse (without asking! thats gross!). he notices theres hair in the sink. instead of asking me to clean it, he start complaining:
OMG VIVIAN your hair is everywhere! you need to clean up after youself. dont you know your hair is falling?! it grows on your head for gods sake! i swear if you dont clean up after yourself im going to burn your hair off. look! theres hair in the bathtub! ... and on and on.
then my brother says, no some of that hair is mine. which is true, he has pretty long hair for a guy and he doesnt always clean up after himself either. but my dad says, NO its her hair, its long hair, blah blah blah........

ok i get your point. i got it when he said his first complete sentence. its not like im leaving poison all over the place.

sometimes i dont know if my dad is pretending to be stupid because he thinks its funny, or he really isnt that bright when it comes to certain things. no, im pretty sure hes just pretending that he doesnt know some/never heard of some super common knowledge, and that annoys the crap out of me. also, ive lived on my own for the past 4 years and im really used to keeping my room a certain way and doing things a certain way. i dont need him to tell me when i need to do what.

the tv. its so quiet. when i do turn the volume up because the show i want to watch is on, they complain that its too loud. seriously?? im not deaf, i dont have hearing problems, but i can barely, BARELY hear what they are saying. it REALLY isnt on that loud. but i guess since they never watch tv, well when they do, they are just looking at the pictures and dont care about what they are saying, they just.. dont care to listen? i dont know. its annoying though.

i dont like the couch. its old and very uncomfortable.

i dont like the garage opener. it doesnt work half of the time.

i dont like the neighborhood.

i dont like sharing a bathroom with my step brother.

i dont like to hear my step brother pee with the bathroom door half open

god i cant wait to move out.


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